Dan’s been on me to write here lately and I’m all about making him happy…
Today I got the best news since June 18, 2010. I had a CT scan yesterday and it came back normal! I’ve been struggling with whether I should have a scan or not. My thoughts have been I should not because if something was going on them I would have to deal with it. Ignorance is bliss, right? But then my thoughts were I should because then I could feel good about being done; I would be able to end the questions in my mind of what if. The relief that I feel now is indescribable. It’s a huge weight removed. This coming Tuesday (9/6) will be my last treatment of Herceptin (the IV drug that I’ve had to be on for the past year). Then the next week I will be having my port removed. Now that all questions are answered and my scan was clear I can be really excited about finishing.
It’s been a crazy year for me and Dan… not what I expected the past year to look like! But things are looking up. My hair is slowly growing back! I had one of my friends at work measure it today and the back and sides are just a little over 2 inches and the top is just about 1 ½ inches. I thought for sure that it would be much longer than that at this point, but it is getting thicker. I have to be careful and not let the back and sides get too much longer than the top because I don’t want a mullet!!! The color is what it used to be (just looks darker to everyone because there are no highlights), but it is curly. I’ve never had curly hair, but I’ve never had hair this short either (or not since I was a baby)! I’m really just excited that I have hair again.
I feel like cancer has been in my life for way too long; and I think it would be safe to say that anyone that’s ever dealt with cancer feels the same. The last 15 months have probably gone by fast for most people, but it has felt like forever to me. This is coming to an end (for now anyway) and I’m more than thankful for that, but at the same time I don’t ever want to forget what I’ve been through. This October will (hopefully) be the first month since June ’10 that I will not have a doctor appointment!!! October is breast cancer awareness month, too!
I have so much to be thankful for and I know that it is only by God’s grace that I am healthy again.